Long time no write.

I suppose that happens from time to time. People do get busy. But hey, lately I've felt like writing a whole lot.

I did go to Maui, and I had such a lovely time visiting family and watching my beautiful cousin Raseta get married.

Since then I've been enjoying my summer. Like every other person. :)

Airplane.

Soon I'll be on an airplane. To one of my favorite destinations. MAUI. I cannot wait!

I almost get the feeling I'm an Island girl at heart...

hah, just kidding. ;o)

Things Change.

Things change all the time... this is kind of a  late night ramblings post... but non the less...
I've had so many opportunities lately, great ones. I've taken advantage of them too. I've gotten another job, that I like so far... it's growing on me. But I still love my family at Macy's. I'm not moving. I'm staying in Eugene. It's just time to be practical. And I think baby steps are in order...

Therefore,

I can always move into town here in the Eug, I'm thinking about it heavily. It'd  be good to have my own place and live on my own for a bit. Go to school at the U of O then possibly transfer to Portland after I've got my feet on the ground. But for now, I have to be practical and save money to do all the things I'd like to do.

This just makes more sense... I'm sad I don't get to start anew in a new city, with new people, and have a crazzzy life changing experience. But that time will come soon enough... Later down the line.

But for now, I'm content.

It's so weird how distance can change things.

Head in the clouds...

I get so unbelievably frustrated with people.
I don't understand people. I just don't.
and basically what I don't get is how they can be so
mean and rude. Like it's some disease to them that just
fills them up, never letting it escape them.

I feel sorry for them in a way. But why should I.
I don't deserve their rudeness, their insincerity.
I should just move on. But it's so hard, it eats away
at me from time to time. Bringing old things up that hurt.
That should just go away and never come back.
Things that shouldn't be said or done.

The phrase were all human comes to mind.
But sometimes being human isn't an excuse.
You have no right of passage to be unjust in a way that
makes others feel as badly as I feel.

I'll be leaving soon, and I'll be happy to have left you.

"Being tender and open is beautiful. As a woman, I feel continually shhh’ed. Too sensitive. Too mushy. Too wishy washy. Blah blah. Don’t let someone steal your tenderness. Don’t allow the coldness and fear of others to tarnish your perfectly vulnerable beating heart. Nothing is more powerful than allowing yourself to truly be affected by things. Whether it’s a song, a stranger, a mountain, a rain drop, a tea kettle, an article, a sentence, a footstep, feel it all – look around you. All of this is for you. Take it and have gratitude. Give it and feel love."

-Zooey Deschanel

Always adjust those sails.