Sometimes I just want to leave,
leave it all behind. and just start new.
don't you ever wish you could just go.
Just keep in tough with the ones who love you the most.
Forget everyone, and everything. and just go.

Off to a new place. A new adventure.
A fresh start.

And then once you get there it's just so lovely,
because you see things anew, and fresh, with a
totally different perspeictive.

I want to travel, to leave, to get out of here.
This small town, away from this life.
To another country.


If you could go anywhere where would you go?
Well me, I would want to go to:

I feel I need a change in my life.
(Remember this)

I would love to go back. and get away.
far far farrrr away. I just want...

Something new.

I wish I could get away.
Just for a bit. But for now. I think my
closest escape will be to the

mountain mountain mountain!
Oh boy, I cannot wait.
te he.
♥

Latley I'd just like to say:

I'm so sick and tired of bullshit. I don't need it in my life.

Black Friday,

is definitely black alright. I swear by it. Today was absolutely ridiculous. FREAKING RIDICULOUS. dear lord. So I wake up at 5:45 to my mother coming into my room saying..."Christina! Aren't you suppose to be at work!" And I wake up saying..."GOD DAMMIT!" I was suppose to be at work at 4:45 and I didn't get there til around 6:30. Freaking wonderful. My little heart was beating, and oh how I hate being late. Like I HATE being late. Especially to work, because I feel like I let down people, because they needed me, because we were so freaking busy. And while I ran into the store, heart beating, with a mind set of madness and sadness, I am greeted by people who love me. It was nice. It made me happy, although I was a little disappointed in myself. Everyone was just happy for me to be there, and boy was it busy. I didn't take any breaks. AT ALL! Annnnd I barely made it out alive. I swear I thought someone was going to have to come in with a shovel and scrape me up off the sales floor. But luckily I held it together, dealt with stupid customers, and smiled of course... all day long. (Speaking of smiling, some guy came up to my register and was like how are you, and I was like good with a smile. And he was like how are you smiling right now, you must me on something. Hahaha made me laugh. Too bad I wasn't. I was just high on life.) Hopefully everyone had a lovely black Friday and got some good deals. Because the only deal I got was working with some fabulous people. ♥

Magic,

You've got magic inside your finger tips
Its leaking out all over my skin
Everytime that I get close to you
Your making me weak with the way you
Look through those eyes

But all I see is your face
All I need is your touch
Wake me up with your lips
Come at me from up above..

Winter Wonderland.

This morning was wonderful.
I awoke to a powder covering everything.
The trees, my porch, the ground, shrubs, my car.
It made me smile.

I love the snow. I'm in love with winter.
It makes me so happy. The beauty of the snow
covering and defining each and every obstacle
in it's way from letting it touch the ground.

It's beautiful. Truly beautiful.
The sky made up of grey and blue.
While the sun is shining through.I bundled up today in my blankies.
Sipping on cider, eating soup, and
watching movies.

I deffinetly cannot wait to build a
snowman though, have a snowball fight and
deffinetly snowboard.

I love sweaters, jackets, pants, mittens,
hats and beanies, scarfs, leg warmers, boots,
and deffinetly the good ol snowboarding gear.

Hopefully everyone had a fun day in their
winter wonderland.

So sometimes;

I don't know where I'm headed in life.
Sometimes I can't really decide.

There are so many roads to take.
And so many bits and pieces you can take with you.


Lately, I feel like I'm on a pretty good path.
A nice little road, with a couple bumps in it.

But I like bumps, they make the ride fun.
Especially when theres twists and turns too.
Or possibly a U turn, those are the worst.

You know what I mean? Or maybe you don't.
Maybe you get car sick along the way.

That's okay, there's always going to be pit stops.
I like taking pit stops. They allow you to
stretch your little legs during the journey your on.

But for some reason lately.. I haven't really taken
any pit stops at all. It's really no good either.

I'll probably be needing a pit stop pretty soon here.
Then maybe drive a little slower, like 35 mph
instead of that whole race car driver 65.

Pretty sure I'll drive like a Sunday driver.
That's fairly slow. Then the bumbs won't be so rough.
And the turns won't be to bad.

I wonder which way I should head if I stop.
Right or left? Left or right?
Maybe I should get a map..
Or read a sign.

A sign would be nice.




Oh pee.ess.

buckle up, someone needs you. ♥

Back to December,

I'm so glad you made time to see me.
How's life? Tell me how's your family
I haven't seen them in a while.
You've been good, busier than ever,
We small talk, work and the weather,
Your guard is up and I know why.

'cause the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind
You gave me roses and I left them there to die.

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying, "I'm sorry for that night",
And I go back to December all the time.
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you.
Wishing that I realized what I had when you were mine.
I'd go back to December, turn around and make it all right
I go back to December all the time.

These days I haven't been sleeping
Staying up playing back myself leavin'
When your birthday passed and I didn't call.
And I think about summer, all the beautiful times,
I watched you laughing from the passenger side.
Realized that I loved you in the fall

Then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love and all I gave you was "Goodbye"

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying, "I'm sorry for that night".
And I go back to December all the time.
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you,
Wishing that I realized what I had when you were mine.
I'd go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time.

I miss your tanned skin, your sweet smile, so good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night
The first time you ever saw me cry

Maybe this is wishful thinking,
Probably mindless dreaming,
If we loved again I swear I'd love you right...

I'd go back in time and change it but I can't.
So if the chain is on your door I understand.

But this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying, "I'm sorry for that night"
And I go back to December...
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you,
Wishing that I'd realize what I had when you were mine.
I'd go back to December, turn around and make it all right.
I'd go back to December, turn around and change my own mind

I'd go back to December all the time.
All the time

A girl like me;

Be with someone who knows what they have, when they have you.-Unknown

I keep waiting to meet a man who has more balls than I do.
-Selma Hayek

The saddest thing for a girl to do is to dumb herself down for a guy.
-Emma Watson

Why settle? I am a person with high expectations and standards. I don't think that they should be lowered to allow more assholes into the spectrum of my world.
-Unknown


A true man does not need to romance a different girl every night, a true man romances the same girl for the rest of her life.
-Ana Alas


Girls are taught a lot of stuff growing up. If a guy punches you he likes you. Never try to trim your own bangs and someday you will meet a wonderful guy and get your very own happy ending. Every movie we see, Every story we’re told implores us to wait for it, the third act twist, the unexpected declaration of love, the exception to the rule. But sometimes we’re so focused on finding our happy ending we don’t learn how to read the signs. How to tell from the ones who want us and the ones who don’t, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. And maybe a happy ending doesn’t include a guy, maybe it’s you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. Maybe the happy ending is just moving on. Or maybe the happy ending is this, knowing after all the unreturned phone calls, broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment… you never gave up hope.
- From the movie: hes just not that into you



In fairytales the princesses kiss the frogs, and the frogs become princes. in real life the princesses kiss the princes, and the princes turn into frogs.
-Unknown


♥

Oh;

Sometimes I lie awake at night, and I ask, ‘Where have I gone wrong’. Then a voice says to me, ‘This is going to take more than one night.’

And so I ponder, and wander around in my thoughts.

my troubles.

And sometimes while I lie awake I find within my thoughts,

some peace.

some quiet.

♥

This last weekend,

wassss a blast, I did a beauty shoot with
Nick Johnson, and my makeup artist was Rheanna Bowman.
We had tooo much fun. I fell in love with having my
makeup done. Having it air brushed on is freaking
amazing, everyone should have that done atleast once
in their lifetime. Anyways, we created fablous work
and here are a few finished products:

Hah!

"I like boys with strong convictions, & convicts with perfect diction. Underdogs with good intentions. Amputees with stamp collections. Plywood skinboards ride the ocean, salty noses, suntan lotion, always seriously joking, & rambunctiously soft-spoken. I like boys that like their mothers & I have a thing for brothers. But they always wait til we’re under the covers, to say “I’m sure glad we’re not lovers.""

So Nice So Smart - Kimya Dawson

"Sweet Dreams"

A set of the two very best words put together.
Their my favorite when their together.

I love when people wish me good night,
then follow with sweet dreams.

Because we all would like to have
sweet dreams every once in a while.

But it makes me smile. I don't know
why, I have no rhyme or reasoning.

But it makes me so entirely happy
when I get wished sweet dreams.

And now I bid you adieu and
sweet dreams.

♥

Lock it up.

This is “The Safest Wall” in Seoul, South Korea. Young couples show their love for each other by locking a pair of padlocks to this fence, and throwing the keys over the edge. By throwing away the keys, they are showing their undying commitment to each other.

I hope some day I'll have that much commitment for one person.
♥












until.... he cheats on me.
hahahaha.

kidding! ;)

Right now.

Right now, I'm kind of at a loss for words. I don't know exactly what I'd like to say. There's so much swirling around in my brain right now. I feel like before I go to bed every night I think about all things bothering me, all the situations I'm in, and each moment of my day.

But then...

I realize even if there are things bothering me, and the situations I'm in may be bad, and the moments in my day weren't to great.. I know that there are other people in the same world I live in, that have a billion things bothering them, and the situations they're in are unfortunate, and the moments in their day could be life threatening. Other people in the same world I live in hurt more than I do. Therefore I should be grateful for the things I have. And for every moment I take a breath of air.

I feel like people should be more optimistic about life. Taking in each and every moment in their day and accepting it and understand that many people in the same world that you live in may or may not have one last wish they'd like to fulfill in life, before the things like what's bothering them, the situations they're in, and the moments in their day actually disappear. It's really disheartening at times to think about these things, but in reality. No one's life is perfect.

My grandma died thirteen years ago today. I miss her more than ever. She was the only grandparent I remembered fully. I have no grandparents anymore. I miss them all. But I feel so privileged that I was able to meet some of them in my lifetime. And that they were able to provide me with the wonderful parents I have today.

I'm grateful for each moment in my life whether it's good or bad. Each moment in my life shapes me as a person and contributes to who I am. I know that in having a rough day, I'm able to overcome it. Jumping the hurdles in life is something I'm fairly good at, moving on, adapting to the changes made. It happens whether you like it or not. But each hurdle I jump in life and over come allows me to be grateful for the life I live and the people who've contributed to me.

I live a wonderful life, hopefully someday you'll be apart of it. ♥


We can only be said to be alive in those moments when our hearts are conscious of our treasures. ~Thornton Wilder

GGGYEAH.

Hahahaha, I know I'm G.
;)

What do you feel

in a couple pictures...?

I love that feeling. You know, the one you get when you take a deep breath and suddenly everything feels like it’s going to be okay. When you feel as hopeless as can be and life is going nowhere, and the whole entire world is spinning. Then there are those moments we have every now and then where we get this feeling that can’t be described, but you get this rush and the world stops spinning for a second and everything was clear and at that moment, you just know. I need more of those moments in my life.

Dear you,

Hiiii your tute.
I like you.
I wish there was something there.
Meh maybe there is..maybe theres not.
But really.. who knows.
I wish you weren't so far away.
I mish you.
Your such a sweet person sometimes,
but other times your really such
a butt head.
But to make a long story short.
Quit being afraid of commitment.
kthanks.

♥,
Me.

The Top;

"Girls are like apples...the best ones are at the top of the trees. The boys don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they just get the rotten apples that are on the ground that aren't as good, but easy. So the apples at the top think there is something wrong with them, when, in reality, they are amazing. They just have to wait for the right boy to come along, the one who's brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree."

I wish,

I wish alot, I have such wishful thinking.
And sometimes it gets the best of me.
Actually, it gets the best of me all the time.

I know I should probably stop wishing things
would happen, things would change, things
would fix themselves, people would grow up,
people would love me for me.

But really, their not. It'll never happen.
Because, its just life. And my wishes,
they never really come true.




And you never really reach 100%
of what you want in life.
It's always 80 or 90, never 100
though. But I guess that 80 or 90
is better than nothing.

And I should be greatful for what
I have in life, but sometimes I wish
I could get that extra 10%, and
people would go that extra mile,
and my wishes would come true.

But there I go wishing again...

Oh gosh.

I'm such a hopeless romatic.
It's a little ridiculous.
Not even kidding..

But hey, I'm sure every girl is
in some way.
Oh prince charming,
sweep me off my feet.
Yes and Please.

Lets go walk in the pouring rain together.
Or how about we watch the sunset go down
at the beach. Sit on your car and watch
a drive in movie together. Kiss me before
I go to bed, wisk me off my feet, snuggle
with me when I'm cold. Hold my hand when I
feel lonely. Give me a compliment when
I'm sad. Appriciate everything I do. Believe
in me. Encourage me. Forgive me. Open up to me.
Laugh at the silly things I do and say. Agree
with me even if I'm wrong. Commit to me, trust me,
and love me unconditionally for who I am not
only on the outside but on the inside too.





only in a fairytale would those things ever happen
to me.

A rose,

So right now I'm sitting at my kitchen table.
Writing this blogpost. And so I decide to look out the
window. It's cold looking, dull, overcast, theres alot
of green, and the leaves are starting to fall from the trees.
The wind is blowing but if I look far, farther away from me
I see mountains of blue meeting with the white and grey sky
almost blending in. But as I look closer to me, not as far away
as the sky or the mountains. I see a rose. Not quite in bloom,
but about to be, soon. A beautiful red rose. Those are my favorite.
And it sticks out, especially in a backgroud full of green.
It's different.

But I like different.

Mostly, I just cannot believe that it's about to bloom in almost
what I call winter time. I mean it is still fall, but it's mostly
winter, it's so cold. All the other roses bloomed long ago, their
dead looking stems withering away.
I like that red rose.

It dares to be different.
♥


picture taken by: me.