. Wanderlust .

My little life’s adventures to explore anything and everything.

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

From where you are.

So far away from where you are
These miles have torn us worlds apart
And I miss you, yeah I miss you

So far away from where you are
I'm standing underneath the stars
And I wish you were here

I miss the years that were erased
I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face
I miss all the little things
I never thought that they'd mean everything to me
Yeah I miss you
And I wish you were here

I feel the beating of your heart
I see the shadows of your face
Just know that wherever you are
Yeah, I miss you
And I wish you were here

I miss the years that were erased
I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face
I miss all the little things
I never thought that they'd mean everything to me
Yeah I miss you
And I wish you were here

So far away from where you are
These miles have torn us worlds apart
And I miss you, yeah I miss you
And I wish you were here

Hey you, yeah you!

I never realized how many fake people there are.
It's a little ridiculous.

I don't understand
why people try to be fake or are fake.

Be you,
Find you,
Be happy with that.

I mean you are your own person at least
take initiative for thing's you've
done or accomplished in life.

Because if you are who you are
people will love you for you. Why would anyone want
to be friends with someone who is fake.
I mean I sure the heck wouldn't want to be.

If your yourself, and are very honest about who you are, and people
like you that's fine. And guess what, if they don't it's their loss.
But just be true to yourself.

If your not true to yourself, who's going to be true to you?
If your not honest with yourself, who's going to be honest with you?

1. Be yourself, truthfully
2. Accept yourself, gratefully
3. Value yourself, joyfully
4. Forgive yourself, completely
5. Treat yourself, generously
6. Balence yourself, harmounously
7. Bless yourself, abundently
8. Trust yourself, confidently
9. Love yourself, wholeheartedly
10. Empower yourself, immidetly
11. Give yourself, enthusiactically
12. Express yourself, radiently

1st aid for the soul.

Monday, September 27, 2010


© Jeff Shanes

I am now signed with Sports + Lifestyle Unlimited.
I couldn't be more happier with my decision.
I believe they are one of the best agencies in Oregon.
I'm cannot wait to see what doors this will open up
and the oppertunities I will encounter.

Wish me luck!

The thing's you didn't know.

My Dearest Allie,

I couldn’t sleep last night because I know that it’s over between us. I’m not bitter anymore, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I’ll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that’s what you’ve given me. That’s what I hope to give to you forever. I love you. I’ll be seeing you.


One of the best parts, Nicholas Sparks is such an amazing writer.
I want to read all his books. Have you read any? If not, you really
should. Their beautiful.

For you.

For you I'll wait.
I don't like waiting very much. Lately I've been a little lonely.
Lacking something in life. But that's okay. I'll wait.
I mean I have friends and family to fill the spaces where you are not.
But sometimes I wish you'd fill them. I'll have other hands to hold,
many other kisses to give, hugs to recieve, smiles that shine the same,
and love for the people who are in my life.
But still..
I wish you'd find me, or I'd find you.

Friday, September 24, 2010

Sunday, September 19, 2010

In Time..

Everything takes time...and really it's all we have.
Lately I've noticed that. I've been staring at the clock alot.
Like I have to be at work at this time, clock in from lunch at this
time, be here or there by this time, start school at this time.
It's kind of ridiculous..
I wish I could just take all the time I wanted. I like moving
at a slow pace.

But all the seconds, minutes, days, weeks, months, and years add up.
And when it comes down to it, you should be able to look
back at those seconds, minutes, days, weeks, months, and years
and hope that each and every single one of them is memorable.
Life is so short, it passes you by so quickly.

Today a woman came into the shoe department, and I learned that
she was celebrating her birthday, she was much older. Probably
in her late 60's. she told me the years fly by, she feels
like a thirteen year old supposively. I told her that not many
people can say that. And that it's something to be proud of.
Therefore you must treasure every single moment in your life.
Make each moment in your life something worth living for
and live each moment for you. ♥

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Portland ♥

Oh how I love going to Portland and shooting with one of my favorite photographers in the world. :)
We create such wonderful stuff.
Eeeek! Sooo I'm meeting with an agency tomorrow.
I'm a tad bit excited, and while I'm in portland I
really really really want to go shopping. Like real bad.
It's a tad bit ridiculous.
I mean I am in Portland why shouldn't I do a little shopping.
It wouldn't hurt. Hahaha. Oh lordy.

You can see some of Jeff's work here! :)

On to another note!

School is going to be starting! And we all know what that means!
Christina is going to be super dooooper busy, not really excited.
But I don't really feeeel like studying and everything else that
comes along with going to school. Ugh and I'll be working weekends
which means my whole entire schedule is going to be sooo busy..

I'm not even going to worry, I know I'll be responsible. And get
everything done ahead of time. Haha NOT. I'm such a procrastinator.
Oh lordy. But I'm sure I'll be fine. I'm excited to start dancing
again I really did miss it alot. And I'm super excited to meet new
people, it's my favorite. And and andddd I'm even more excited about
winter coming. I miss snowboarding so much. ♥ I hope I go alot this year
I plan on it. I just hope I can make time for it.

Hmm, good night.
Listen to this if you want to fall asleep:

Thursday, September 9, 2010


She took the words right out of my mouth.
from the blog of:

This Girl!

"So I have been meaning to write this entry for a long time now; I just never found the motivation or time to actually care. But I do want to make some kind of marker in my history so here it is.

I am so sick of all these guys coming up to me and making all of these false promises of wanting something more with me and what not. Be serious. Actions speak louder than words losers.

I can't tell you just how many guys I have encountered this summer who have all been, hmm shall we be slightly vulgar? who have all been trying to seriously "holler" at me. They have all been saying sweet nothings of hopes and promises to me and wanting to "do things right" and blah blah fucking blah. They know there's not even a maybe chance of getting anything from me; yet, (I guess to commend their courage and bravado) they get up the nerve to approach me and lay it all down.

And really, nothing ever comes from words until proper action is taken in order to secure the progress of execution and success. I love words, given that I majored in one of my passions. But these words, there is a difference. I know there is a difference between truth and pure bullshit.

You say you've thought about this for years, yes I am talking to several of you, but yet when push comes to shove, you can't man up to actually do anything about it to make me believe you. You get butthurt that I stopped speaking to you. Hello? I'm not about to put my life aside just to try to get to you.

Stop trying to fill me up with your trials of righteousness and self worth of you trying to be something more to me than what really is.
I told you, I play for keeps; that's if I play. You wonder why I'm so hard to get to, this is why. You wonder why I don't ever give an inch until time has been spent and contemplated or worth has been proven. This is why.

And to those who have tried to follow through: Stop fucking calling or texting me, obviously if I haven't picked up in months, that means I am not interested. Sorry and thank you.

On a side note***
Isn't it strange that the one you want never seems to work out while you get thrown a whole bunch of trite selections? I don't know, maybe I am too picky. I've been told that constantly time and time again haha. No, actually I am too picky. But why shouldn't I be? Why settle? I am a person with high expectations and standards. I don't think that they should be lowered to allow more assholes into the spectrum of my world."


Monday, September 6, 2010

Oh dear,

You are beautiful.
Times can become tough. But just believe in yourself.
Those scars on your knees? They've shown me you've fallen.
That sparkle in your eyes when you smile? They show me you
picked yourself up. That smile of yours is drop dead gorgeous,
wear it more often.

Who gives a shit if you have acne? Who cares if your overweight
or underweight, tall or short, tan or pale, an A cup or D cup?

All that matters is that someone thinks your beautiful just the way you are.
And that someone is me.


What five words do you see?

Our psychological state allows us to see only what we want/need/feel to see at a particular time.

I see:

Man, Rage, Sin, Dream, Passion


Sunday, September 5, 2010


Don't you wish sometimes you could just stay in bed all day.
Have breakfest in bed maybe?
Read a good book, and just let the sunlight come through.
Oh how that sounds so lovely as I write
this in the comfort of my own bed.

Oh today today today.
A little birdie told me something.
and I could not believe what that
little birdie said.
All I say to that is this quote:

"Stupidity is better kept a secret than displayed”.

That is all. :)

Oh and pee.ess.

Friday, September 3, 2010

If I'm not worth your heart, baby you're not worth mine.
Life's Little Adventures