A thought;

Today I had a thought, a memory came back to me. As I was wishing my dad goodbye as he left on the plane to California. And I thought to myself... I'll miss him. I really will. Then on the drive home as I passed the park this memory came to me. We live fairly close to Richardson Park, and in the summer we'd always take trips down to the park, my mom and I would pick apples. But when I went with my dad we'd swing.



So I would sit in his lap. And we would swing so high. High above so that I could almost touch the tree brach that grew infront of the swingset. I felt like I could touch the clouds. Secure and safe we'd go higher and higher. The wind would kiss my face, and blow through my hair. Looking up through the trees straight to the sky as we'd bend back together. But you can only go so high on a swing, and as we'd slow down coming back to the ground touching our feet to the gravel.

What I wouldn't give to be a kid for just a little while..

Still so much like life in a way that no matter how high we get in life we always have to come back down to the ground, to reality, and see things at a normal level while still looking up.

Miss you dad. ♥

Exactly,

She took the words right out of my mouth.
from the blog of:

This Girl!



"So I have been meaning to write this entry for a long time now; I just never found the motivation or time to actually care. But I do want to make some kind of marker in my history so here it is.

I am so sick of all these guys coming up to me and making all of these false promises of wanting something more with me and what not. Be serious. Actions speak louder than words losers.

I can't tell you just how many guys I have encountered this summer who have all been, hmm shall we be slightly vulgar? who have all been trying to seriously "holler" at me. They have all been saying sweet nothings of hopes and promises to me and wanting to "do things right" and blah blah fucking blah. They know there's not even a maybe chance of getting anything from me; yet, (I guess to commend their courage and bravado) they get up the nerve to approach me and lay it all down.

And really, nothing ever comes from words until proper action is taken in order to secure the progress of execution and success. I love words, given that I majored in one of my passions. But these words, there is a difference. I know there is a difference between truth and pure bullshit.

You say you've thought about this for years, yes I am talking to several of you, but yet when push comes to shove, you can't man up to actually do anything about it to make me believe you. You get butthurt that I stopped speaking to you. Hello? I'm not about to put my life aside just to try to get to you.

Stop trying to fill me up with your trials of righteousness and self worth of you trying to be something more to me than what really is.
I told you, I play for keeps; that's if I play. You wonder why I'm so hard to get to, this is why. You wonder why I don't ever give an inch until time has been spent and contemplated or worth has been proven. This is why.

And to those who have tried to follow through: Stop fucking calling or texting me, obviously if I haven't picked up in months, that means I am not interested. Sorry and thank you.

On a side note***
Isn't it strange that the one you want never seems to work out while you get thrown a whole bunch of trite selections? I don't know, maybe I am too picky. I've been told that constantly time and time again haha. No, actually I am too picky. But why shouldn't I be? Why settle? I am a person with high expectations and standards. I don't think that they should be lowered to allow more assholes into the spectrum of my world."



URG!

oh and!

and if not then...

Turning the page

Well I guess it's time to close a chapter in my life and start a new one. :) That's always fun, I don't mind it. It happens, life goes on, and you can only benefit from the things that happened.






Who knows maybe things will change.
and if they do, it'll be for the best. :)


I mean I want to stay with you, but being on a break? Either you want to be together or you don't there is no inbetween.
It's like:

Yes

No

Maybe.

When you ask a question like that it's a yes or no answer. There is no maybe in life, you eiether do or don't.

I know you don't know.........



but hopefully you'll figure it out soon.




I don't feel like giving you time, it's all you've gotten lately.
Do you really think you need time, or is it just to make you feel better
about breaking up with me. I wish you'd tell me more so I can just move on
or stick around. It's hard waiting. I don't know if giving you time will
set things right, but I hope it does. I really do. You mean so much to me.