. Wanderlust .

My little life’s adventures to explore anything and everything.

Thursday, December 30, 2010

Dear 2010,

you were a wonderful year. And you taught me
many many many different things. Things that
I will take with me into the new year. And
things that I will never ever forget.

I would like to say goodbye to you. And
thank you for being such a glorious,
lively, and inspiring year. But mostly
I would like to thank you for a year filled
with learning and generosity. You could have
been much worse.

Just a few things I've come to find this past year:
(A short list)

•I sometimes let people walk all over me.
(this i am working on)

•There will always be someone who loves you for you.

•People will not change for you, and you have to live
with the fact that they will always be how they intend.

•I'm finally pursuing my dream. Well one. It really is
coming true.

•Boys will be boys, and if someone dosn't make you a
priority, then all you will ever be is a option.

•Never ever lend money to anyone, for any reason. EVER.

•I am currently in the process of figuring where I want
to go in life, and what exactly I'm looking for.

•And lastly,
anyone is able to catch my eye, but its really going to
take someone special to catch my heart.

Do you do more than just exist?

Saturday, December 25, 2010


Sometimes I feel like luck plays a big part
in everyone's lives. But sometimes I feel like
it could just be fate. Like a series of events led
up to the main event, whether it was good or bad.

Sometimes I wonder how you have good luck or bad
luck. And why exactly it happens. Do you think
that if you've been doing things that are positive
you have good luck, and if your doing things that
are poor you have bad luck. Or is it just our
decisions we make in life that bring bad luck or
good luck upon us.

I feel like the decisions we make in life bring
on bad and good luck, and whether the ending
result is positive or negative it all depends..
Like what if you could have done something just
a little different to where it could have changed
the entire result and that result ended for the best
instead of the worst.

If only common sense were used, and people thought
through the situations before they just acted upon
impulse. In every situation I try my very best not
to act on impulse. Because normally when I do the
result is bad luck. Or maybe not just bad luck but
a poor decision on my behalf.

So maybe there is no good luck or bad luck. And you
must go through life deciding what is best for you,
in the situation your in, and try not to just act
on an impulse. Whatever your doing, do it for you.
Not someone else.

Just for you.

Friday, December 24, 2010

Where are you Christmas?

Oh your all around.
Your in everyone's hearts.

You fill the air, and bring
joy to every family.
Even those less fortunate
than mine.

I am so thankful for my family.

Tonight we all watched Christmas movies.
And tomorrow morning we'll open presents.
I cannot wait.

Tonight we also watched Home Alone 2,
One of my favorite movies around Christmas.
I could watch that any day.

Most memorable quotes:

Bird Lady: The man I loved fell out of love with me. That broke my heart. When the chance to be loved came along again, I ran away from it. I stopped trusting people.
Kevin McCallister: No offense, but that seems like sort of a dumb thing to do.
Bird Lady: I was afraid of getting my heart broken again. Sometimes you can trust a person, and then, when things are down, they forget about you.
Kevin McCallister: Maybe they're just too busy. Maybe they don't forget about you, but they forget to remember you. People don't mean to forget. My grandfather says if my head wasn't screwed on, I'd leave it on the school bus.
Bird Lady: I'm just afraid if I do trust someone, I'll get my heart broken.
Kevin McCallister: I understand. I had a nice pair of Rollerblades. I was afraid to wreck them, so I kept them in a box. Do you know what happened? I outgrew them. I never wore them outside. Only in my room a few times.
Bird Lady: A person's heart and feelings are very different than skates.
Kevin McCallister: They're kind of the same thing. If you won't use your heart, who cares if it gets broken? If you just keep it to yourself, maybe it'll be like my Rollerblades. When you do decide to try it, it won't be any good. You should take a chance. Got nothing to lose.
Bird Lady: Little truth in there somewhere.
Kevin McCallister: I think so. Your heart might still be broken, but it isn't gone. If it was gone, you wouldn't be so nice.

Open your heart, open it wide.
If you can give any gift, give some love.
You never know how much a person could need it.

I hope everyone has a very
‎*★Merry★* 。 • ˚ ˚ ˛ ˚ ˛ •
•。★Christmas!★ 。* 。
° 。 ° ˛˚˛ * _Π_____*。*˚
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˚ ˛ •˛• ˚ | 田田 |門| ˚
and for those who don't celebrate happy holidays.

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Do you care?

I'll always care.


everything has been well with me.
which is deffinetly a good thing.
Here is a list of things that have
put me in the best of moods;

getting my hair cut (finally)
painting my nails
friends visiting me at work
working (earning money)
sleeping in
nice text messages
the three word phrase: i love you
keeping up on things
new music


I feel like that alot latey.
hehe. and like this too: ♥
I love my family, and my friends.
I'm so entirely greatful for them.

They own my:

Thursday, December 16, 2010

Sunday, December 12, 2010

It's begining to look alot like Christmas;

Today was such a good day. Actually this weekend has been wonderful. I worked, and in the evenings I went out with friends. Suchhhh a blast. :) And today I did a shoot. So it was freaking awesome. But today was the best by far. My family and I went to go pick out a christmas tree!

Picking out the tree is the best. I hate fake trees.. who does that? To really get into christmas you must get a christmas tree, this tree cannot be fake. It must be REAL people! What the heck! And then.. when you bring it into your house. The whole house smells of a christmas tree. I love that smell. ♥

So we finally found our christmas tree after arguing for like an hour about where we should go look for one along with which tree we should pick. But we found one. The ONE. hehe. and so it came home with us. But as we were driving we saw this hawk! It was so pretty, sitting on top of a different christmas tree. So I got some really good pictures of it.

So so so happy. ♥ I love the holidays. Especially the hippo song. it makes my day. Liiiike no other. But anyways! The tree is in the house! It has it's pretty lights on it. The inside of the house is decorated. Andd no all thats left is to put ordinmints on the tree and lights on the house! Must be done! It must, it must!

So the end of my day ended quite well with a shoot with Nick! and my make was done by Rheanna. :) heres a peek,

* Let it snow! *

Wednesday, December 8, 2010


To wish you were someone else is to waste the person you are.
And wasting is not a good thing.
My mom told me never to waste anything. Especially food on
my plate. Because there are so many hungry people in the world.
But I think one thing you definitely shouldn't waste is
the person you are.

Wasting the person you are, leads to a copy.
And no one wants a copy of something.
So be original. Be unique. But most of all

just be you.


Monday, December 6, 2010

Oh today;

was a fairly good day. :)
I had a funny series of events!
Actually just one in particular.
It made me laugh. I giggled possibly
the whole entire end of my shift.

The other series of events was nice, and
it made my day go by faster. It was the
fact that our shoe department was just ransaked
with people shopping for the holiday.

Busy busy busy bee, that's what I was.
On the other hand, I got way to many compliments
today. But it was nice, it made me smile.
Compliments on my hair mostly. And that ballet dancers
are beautiful, and then that I was nice. I like
compliments. Their quite nice.

Okay so to my story! haha.
try not to laugh to much... ;)

So my co worker kayla and I end up together closing
the shoe department, I got off a little earlier than
she did, but of course as were trying to clean up and
make everything tidy we get the average customer coming
in shopping late after the rush, which is exactly the way I
would do it too. But these three hispanic women came in
to exchange a coat and slippers, and of course they speak
spanish in front of me. So of course I have NO IDEA whatsoever
on what their talking about.. Then as I'm exchanging their
merchandise, one of the woman asks "how old are you?" and I
reply twenty. The conversation ended and I was just about done
with the transaction, but inquiring minds must know. So I asked
why she wanted to know my age.. and she replys "Oh my son.. well
hes around your age and we'd like to find him someone like you".
WOW. hahaha.. So I was kind of like uhm okay, I see. and that's when
it got a tad bit akward. I was a little astonished.. not going to lie.
But then she goes into telling me how he has fair skin and dark brown
hair and blue eyes like I do. They thought it was really un-natural to
find someone that had blue eyes and natural brown hair. I thought it
was freaking halarious how they were trying to pimp out their son to me.

what. a. day.

Hopefully yours was wonderful and you recieved some compliments. :)
If not thannnn here it goes;

Monday, November 29, 2010

Sometimes I just want to leave,
leave it all behind. and just start new.
don't you ever wish you could just go.
Just keep in tough with the ones who love you the most.
Forget everyone, and everything. and just go.

Off to a new place. A new adventure.
A fresh start.

And then once you get there it's just so lovely,
because you see things anew, and fresh, with a
totally different perspeictive.

I want to travel, to leave, to get out of here.
This small town, away from this life.
To another country.

If you could go anywhere where would you go?
Well me, I would want to go to:

I feel I need a change in my life.
(Remember this)

I would love to go back. and get away.
far far farrrr away. I just want...

Something new.

I wish I could get away.
Just for a bit. But for now. I think my
closest escape will be to the

mountain mountain mountain!
Oh boy, I cannot wait.
te he.

Friday, November 26, 2010

Latley I'd just like to say:

I'm so sick and tired of bullshit. I don't need it in my life.

Black Friday,

is definitely black alright. I swear by it. Today was absolutely ridiculous. FREAKING RIDICULOUS. dear lord. So I wake up at 5:45 to my mother coming into my room saying..."Christina! Aren't you suppose to be at work!" And I wake up saying..."GOD DAMMIT!" I was suppose to be at work at 4:45 and I didn't get there til around 6:30. Freaking wonderful. My little heart was beating, and oh how I hate being late. Like I HATE being late. Especially to work, because I feel like I let down people, because they needed me, because we were so freaking busy. And while I ran into the store, heart beating, with a mind set of madness and sadness, I am greeted by people who love me. It was nice. It made me happy, although I was a little disappointed in myself. Everyone was just happy for me to be there, and boy was it busy. I didn't take any breaks. AT ALL! Annnnd I barely made it out alive. I swear I thought someone was going to have to come in with a shovel and scrape me up off the sales floor. But luckily I held it together, dealt with stupid customers, and smiled of course... all day long. (Speaking of smiling, some guy came up to my register and was like how are you, and I was like good with a smile. And he was like how are you smiling right now, you must me on something. Hahaha made me laugh. Too bad I wasn't. I was just high on life.) Hopefully everyone had a lovely black Friday and got some good deals. Because the only deal I got was working with some fabulous people. ♥

Tuesday, November 23, 2010


You've got magic inside your finger tips
Its leaking out all over my skin
Everytime that I get close to you
Your making me weak with the way you
Look through those eyes

But all I see is your face
All I need is your touch
Wake me up with your lips
Come at me from up above..

Winter Wonderland.

This morning was wonderful.
I awoke to a powder covering everything.
The trees, my porch, the ground, shrubs, my car.
It made me smile.

I love the snow. I'm in love with winter.
It makes me so happy. The beauty of the snow
covering and defining each and every obstacle
in it's way from letting it touch the ground.

It's beautiful. Truly beautiful.
The sky made up of grey and blue.
While the sun is shining through.I bundled up today in my blankies.
Sipping on cider, eating soup, and
watching movies.

I deffinetly cannot wait to build a
snowman though, have a snowball fight and
deffinetly snowboard.

I love sweaters, jackets, pants, mittens,
hats and beanies, scarfs, leg warmers, boots,
and deffinetly the good ol snowboarding gear.

Hopefully everyone had a fun day in their
winter wonderland.

Monday, November 22, 2010

So sometimes;

I don't know where I'm headed in life.
Sometimes I can't really decide.

There are so many roads to take.
And so many bits and pieces you can take with you.

Lately, I feel like I'm on a pretty good path.
A nice little road, with a couple bumps in it.

But I like bumps, they make the ride fun.
Especially when theres twists and turns too.
Or possibly a U turn, those are the worst.

You know what I mean? Or maybe you don't.
Maybe you get car sick along the way.

That's okay, there's always going to be pit stops.
I like taking pit stops. They allow you to
stretch your little legs during the journey your on.

But for some reason lately.. I haven't really taken
any pit stops at all. It's really no good either.

I'll probably be needing a pit stop pretty soon here.
Then maybe drive a little slower, like 35 mph
instead of that whole race car driver 65.

Pretty sure I'll drive like a Sunday driver.
That's fairly slow. Then the bumbs won't be so rough.
And the turns won't be to bad.

I wonder which way I should head if I stop.
Right or left? Left or right?
Maybe I should get a map..
Or read a sign.

A sign would be nice.

Oh pee.ess.

buckle up, someone needs you. ♥

Thursday, November 18, 2010

Back to December,

I'm so glad you made time to see me.
How's life? Tell me how's your family
I haven't seen them in a while.
You've been good, busier than ever,
We small talk, work and the weather,
Your guard is up and I know why.

'cause the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind
You gave me roses and I left them there to die.

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying, "I'm sorry for that night",
And I go back to December all the time.
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you.
Wishing that I realized what I had when you were mine.
I'd go back to December, turn around and make it all right
I go back to December all the time.

These days I haven't been sleeping
Staying up playing back myself leavin'
When your birthday passed and I didn't call.
And I think about summer, all the beautiful times,
I watched you laughing from the passenger side.
Realized that I loved you in the fall

Then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love and all I gave you was "Goodbye"

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying, "I'm sorry for that night".
And I go back to December all the time.
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you,
Wishing that I realized what I had when you were mine.
I'd go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time.

I miss your tanned skin, your sweet smile, so good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night
The first time you ever saw me cry

Maybe this is wishful thinking,
Probably mindless dreaming,
If we loved again I swear I'd love you right...

I'd go back in time and change it but I can't.
So if the chain is on your door I understand.

But this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying, "I'm sorry for that night"
And I go back to December...
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you,
Wishing that I'd realize what I had when you were mine.
I'd go back to December, turn around and make it all right.
I'd go back to December, turn around and change my own mind

I'd go back to December all the time.
All the time

A girl like me;

Be with someone who knows what they have, when they have you.-Unknown

I keep waiting to meet a man who has more balls than I do.
-Selma Hayek

The saddest thing for a girl to do is to dumb herself down for a guy.
-Emma Watson

Why settle? I am a person with high expectations and standards. I don't think that they should be lowered to allow more assholes into the spectrum of my world.

A true man does not need to romance a different girl every night, a true man romances the same girl for the rest of her life.
-Ana Alas

Girls are taught a lot of stuff growing up. If a guy punches you he likes you. Never try to trim your own bangs and someday you will meet a wonderful guy and get your very own happy ending. Every movie we see, Every story we’re told implores us to wait for it, the third act twist, the unexpected declaration of love, the exception to the rule. But sometimes we’re so focused on finding our happy ending we don’t learn how to read the signs. How to tell from the ones who want us and the ones who don’t, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. And maybe a happy ending doesn’t include a guy, maybe it’s you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. Maybe the happy ending is just moving on. Or maybe the happy ending is this, knowing after all the unreturned phone calls, broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment… you never gave up hope.
- From the movie: hes just not that into you

In fairytales the princesses kiss the frogs, and the frogs become princes. in real life the princesses kiss the princes, and the princes turn into frogs.

Wednesday, November 17, 2010


Sometimes I lie awake at night, and I ask, ‘Where have I gone wrong’. Then a voice says to me, ‘This is going to take more than one night.’

And so I ponder, and wander around in my thoughts.

my troubles.

And sometimes while I lie awake I find within my thoughts,

some peace.

some quiet.

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

This last weekend,

wassss a blast, I did a beauty shoot with
Nick Johnson, and my makeup artist was Rheanna Bowman.
We had tooo much fun. I fell in love with having my
makeup done. Having it air brushed on is freaking
amazing, everyone should have that done atleast once
in their lifetime. Anyways, we created fablous work
and here are a few finished products:

Monday, November 15, 2010


"I like boys with strong convictions, & convicts with perfect diction. Underdogs with good intentions. Amputees with stamp collections. Plywood skinboards ride the ocean, salty noses, suntan lotion, always seriously joking, & rambunctiously soft-spoken. I like boys that like their mothers & I have a thing for brothers. But they always wait til we’re under the covers, to say “I’m sure glad we’re not lovers.""

So Nice So Smart - Kimya Dawson

"Sweet Dreams"

A set of the two very best words put together.
Their my favorite when their together.

I love when people wish me good night,
then follow with sweet dreams.

Because we all would like to have
sweet dreams every once in a while.

But it makes me smile. I don't know
why, I have no rhyme or reasoning.

But it makes me so entirely happy
when I get wished sweet dreams.

And now I bid you adieu and
sweet dreams.

Lock it up.

This is “The Safest Wall” in Seoul, South Korea. Young couples show their love for each other by locking a pair of padlocks to this fence, and throwing the keys over the edge. By throwing away the keys, they are showing their undying commitment to each other.

I hope some day I'll have that much commitment for one person.

until.... he cheats on me.

kidding! ;)

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Right now.

Right now, I'm kind of at a loss for words. I don't know exactly what I'd like to say. There's so much swirling around in my brain right now. I feel like before I go to bed every night I think about all things bothering me, all the situations I'm in, and each moment of my day.

But then...

I realize even if there are things bothering me, and the situations I'm in may be bad, and the moments in my day weren't to great.. I know that there are other people in the same world I live in, that have a billion things bothering them, and the situations they're in are unfortunate, and the moments in their day could be life threatening. Other people in the same world I live in hurt more than I do. Therefore I should be grateful for the things I have. And for every moment I take a breath of air.

I feel like people should be more optimistic about life. Taking in each and every moment in their day and accepting it and understand that many people in the same world that you live in may or may not have one last wish they'd like to fulfill in life, before the things like what's bothering them, the situations they're in, and the moments in their day actually disappear. It's really disheartening at times to think about these things, but in reality. No one's life is perfect.

My grandma died thirteen years ago today. I miss her more than ever. She was the only grandparent I remembered fully. I have no grandparents anymore. I miss them all. But I feel so privileged that I was able to meet some of them in my lifetime. And that they were able to provide me with the wonderful parents I have today.

I'm grateful for each moment in my life whether it's good or bad. Each moment in my life shapes me as a person and contributes to who I am. I know that in having a rough day, I'm able to overcome it. Jumping the hurdles in life is something I'm fairly good at, moving on, adapting to the changes made. It happens whether you like it or not. But each hurdle I jump in life and over come allows me to be grateful for the life I live and the people who've contributed to me.

I live a wonderful life, hopefully someday you'll be apart of it. ♥

We can only be said to be alive in those moments when our hearts are conscious of our treasures. ~Thornton Wilder

Tuesday, November 9, 2010


Hahahaha, I know I'm G.

Monday, November 8, 2010

Sunday, November 7, 2010

I love that feeling. You know, the one you get when you take a deep breath and suddenly everything feels like it’s going to be okay. When you feel as hopeless as can be and life is going nowhere, and the whole entire world is spinning. Then there are those moments we have every now and then where we get this feeling that can’t be described, but you get this rush and the world stops spinning for a second and everything was clear and at that moment, you just know. I need more of those moments in my life.

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Dear you,

Hiiii your tute.
I like you.
I wish there was something there.
Meh maybe there is..maybe theres not.
But really.. who knows.
I wish you weren't so far away.
I mish you.
Your such a sweet person sometimes,
but other times your really such
a butt head.
But to make a long story short.
Quit being afraid of commitment.


The Top;

"Girls are like apples...the best ones are at the top of the trees. The boys don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they just get the rotten apples that are on the ground that aren't as good, but easy. So the apples at the top think there is something wrong with them, when, in reality, they are amazing. They just have to wait for the right boy to come along, the one who's brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree."

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

I wish,

I wish alot, I have such wishful thinking.
And sometimes it gets the best of me.
Actually, it gets the best of me all the time.

I know I should probably stop wishing things
would happen, things would change, things
would fix themselves, people would grow up,
people would love me for me.

But really, their not. It'll never happen.
Because, its just life. And my wishes,
they never really come true.

And you never really reach 100%
of what you want in life.
It's always 80 or 90, never 100
though. But I guess that 80 or 90
is better than nothing.

And I should be greatful for what
I have in life, but sometimes I wish
I could get that extra 10%, and
people would go that extra mile,
and my wishes would come true.

But there I go wishing again...

Oh gosh.

I'm such a hopeless romatic.
It's a little ridiculous.
Not even kidding..

But hey, I'm sure every girl is
in some way.
Oh prince charming,
sweep me off my feet.
Yes and Please.

Lets go walk in the pouring rain together.
Or how about we watch the sunset go down
at the beach. Sit on your car and watch
a drive in movie together. Kiss me before
I go to bed, wisk me off my feet, snuggle
with me when I'm cold. Hold my hand when I
feel lonely. Give me a compliment when
I'm sad. Appriciate everything I do. Believe
in me. Encourage me. Forgive me. Open up to me.
Laugh at the silly things I do and say. Agree
with me even if I'm wrong. Commit to me, trust me,
and love me unconditionally for who I am not
only on the outside but on the inside too.

only in a fairytale would those things ever happen
to me.

Monday, November 1, 2010

A rose,

So right now I'm sitting at my kitchen table.
Writing this blogpost. And so I decide to look out the
window. It's cold looking, dull, overcast, theres alot
of green, and the leaves are starting to fall from the trees.
The wind is blowing but if I look far, farther away from me
I see mountains of blue meeting with the white and grey sky
almost blending in. But as I look closer to me, not as far away
as the sky or the mountains. I see a rose. Not quite in bloom,
but about to be, soon. A beautiful red rose. Those are my favorite.
And it sticks out, especially in a backgroud full of green.
It's different.

But I like different.

Mostly, I just cannot believe that it's about to bloom in almost
what I call winter time. I mean it is still fall, but it's mostly
winter, it's so cold. All the other roses bloomed long ago, their
dead looking stems withering away.
I like that red rose.

It dares to be different.

picture taken by: me.

Wednesday, October 27, 2010


touched my heart. made my day. made me smile.

A friend texted me and told me:

"(: how did you turn out to be such a nice,
smart and caring person? You're such a sweet
girl. There needs to be more of you. It's nice
hanging out with you too, because the conversation
isn't all about gossip. You're a rare breed Christina."

Thank you. ♥

And thank you for being you, your a wonderful person too.

As the leaves change..

I sometimes wish the leaves wouldn't change.
I sometimes wish that everything would go back to the way it was. I liked it alot the way things use to be. Don't you ever wish you could just go back in time, to a life you use to have. I wish I could. But I can't. It's the past, and that's where it'll remain. No one ever said it would be this hard, let's just go back to the start. Going back to relive everything again, maybe do things different. Would you do something different if you had a second chance at life. I actually honestly wouldn't, if I were to change a series of events that would counteract everything that had happened, I may have not the people in my life today, have the things I have today. Going back to the way things were would be nice, easy, fun, but you know. I have all the things I had back then, right now. Just in a different form. Through different people. It's nice. And those people love me for who I am. But sometimes when the leaves change, it makes me miss all the times that have passed by. All the times I was younger and older, up until now. Summer, spring, winter, fall.. the seasons drift by. But I cherish each and every memory made. Because if I didn't my life would be totally different.
Life's Little Adventures