. Wanderlust .

My little life’s adventures to explore anything and everything.

Wednesday, December 19, 2012

love.love.love.

I love winter & snowboarding.





Snow.

I always loved going to the snow when I was younger. And of course I still do. It's beautiful driving up and down and watching how the scenery changes as you get into central oregon.

My family and I would take weekend trips to bend all the time when I was younger. I miss it so much. And I came to realize driving up and back with friends was of course different and the drive itself was a long one. To this day I still can't understand how in the world my dad would get off work after a long day of driving (he use to delivered freight) and then drive us all up to bend in the crazy snowy weather. He's such an amazing man. I love him so much and am so greatful for all he has done for me and my mom too. The amount of things he's accomplished back then and now too considering the state he's in.

Sometimes I wish I could go back in time. But then I realize everything happens for a reason, and the paths we journey on have some sort of adventure, and some sort of way of working out for the best and never for the worst.

Friday, November 16, 2012


If you could only see how blue her eyes can be,
when she says,
when she says she loves me.


Tuesday, November 13, 2012

Well...

Summer is over, fall is here and shortly it will be gone. Onto winter unfortunately. Its crazy how time flys by. But as time flys by I find that things are changing, I'm changing. Soon enough the new year will be here, and with a new year comes new things, experiences, friends, adventures.
 
And I cannot wait, I cannot wait to embark on a new adventure.
 
Finally awarding myself with my associates degree, I find myself finally deciding what I really want to do. I've always wanted to move to Portland, and this year was suppose to be the year. I was so upset when I found that it just wasn't possible considering how expensive it is living there and not having a roommate.
 
But talking with one of my best friends we decided we would move together and I will be earning my bachelor's degree at Portland State and she'll go to school for her masters. I'm so excited to finish up this school year and finally move somewhere new and start an adventure of my own.
 
Wish me luck! :)

Monday, October 1, 2012

California!

Well I must say that California was a success, I had so much fun with Tess. I love her to death, she is definitely one of the best friends I've ever had. Her family was so nice, and I was also so happy to see my friend Oktober another model that recently moved from Eug to Cali. We hungout and shot with some awesome photographers down there. That's the one thing I wish Oregon was like, I wish networking was better, and people would hire models under 5'8"... but don't get me started. haha. :)

Anyways! Here are some photos from our adventure:


Thursday, September 6, 2012

California Dreaming?

Lately I have been, it seems a lot of people have been venturing to California. A close friend of mine left a couple days ago. Which made me think of how bad I've been wanting to get out of Eugene and start traveling around and adventuring. Its unfortunate when you have factors holding you back, but short trips are always fun.

Next week my friend Tess is taking a short vacation to Cali, I think I may go with her. I really want to go, but I also don't want to miss my dads walk to defeat ALS. Which is super super important to me. So I haven't quite decided yet, plus I need to get the days off.

BUT! it would be so much fun, I haven't been to California in a while. Spend some time at the beach, in the sunshine, shopping, and having fun. Eeek. That'd be lovely. :)


Monday, August 20, 2012

Long time no write.

I suppose that happens from time to time. People do get busy. But hey, lately I've felt like writing a whole lot.

I did go to Maui, and I had such a lovely time visiting family and watching my beautiful cousin Raseta get married.

Since then I've been enjoying my summer. Like every other person. :)

Monday, May 21, 2012

Airplane.


Soon I'll be on an airplane. To one of my favorite destinations. MAUI. I cannot wait!

I almost get the feeling I'm an Island girl at heart...

hah, just kidding. ;o)

Things Change.

Things change all the time... this is kind of a  late night ramblings post... but non the less...
I've had so many opportunities lately, great ones. I've taken advantage of them too. I've gotten another job, that I like so far... it's growing on me. But I still love my family at Macy's. I'm not moving. I'm staying in Eugene. It's just time to be practical. And I think baby steps are in order...

Therefore,

I can always move into town here in the Eug, I'm thinking about it heavily. It'd  be good to have my own place and live on my own for a bit. Go to school at the U of O then possibly transfer to Portland after I've got my feet on the ground. But for now, I have to be practical and save money to do all the things I'd like to do.

This just makes more sense... I'm sad I don't get to start anew in a new city, with new people, and have a crazzzy life changing experience. But that time will come soon enough... Later down the line.

But for now, I'm content.

Tuesday, April 10, 2012

It's so weird how distance can change things.

Thursday, March 29, 2012

I get so unbelievably frustrated with people.
I don't understand people. I just don't.
and basically what I don't get is how they can be so
mean and rude. Like it's some disease to them that just
fills them up, never letting it escape them.

I feel sorry for them in a way. But why should I.
I don't deserve their rudeness, their insincerity.
I should just move on. But it's so hard, it eats away
at me from time to time. Bringing old things up that hurt.
That should just go away and never come back.
Things that shouldn't be said or done.

The phrase were all human comes to mind.
But sometimes being human isn't an excuse.
You have no right of passage to be unjust in a way that
makes others feel as badly as I feel.

I'll be leaving soon, and I'll be happy to have left you.

Wednesday, March 14, 2012


"Being tender and open is beautiful. As a woman, I feel continually shhh’ed. Too sensitive. Too mushy. Too wishy washy. Blah blah. Don’t let someone steal your tenderness. Don’t allow the coldness and fear of others to tarnish your perfectly vulnerable beating heart. Nothing is more powerful than allowing yourself to truly be affected by things. Whether it’s a song, a stranger, a mountain, a rain drop, a tea kettle, an article, a sentence, a footstep, feel it all – look around you. All of this is for you. Take it and have gratitude. Give it and feel love."
-Zooey Deschanel

Always adjust those sails.


Wednesday, February 29, 2012

Sunday, February 26, 2012

Hmph.

It's just one of those things...
I hope I can become happier soon.
because I'm not really..
right now.

Wednesday, February 15, 2012

*smileyface

Oh dear lord...
I'm so excited for what is to come. I seriously could freak out right now.
It's a little ridiculous.
This summer shall be one of the best summers ever. EVER.
I just cannot wait. But right now I'm not telling why.
It's a big secret. a REAL big secret. tehe.
I don't feel like telling anyone.. any only a few select people know.
So for right now you'll just have to wait patiently for me to tell you.

EEEEK!

Friday, February 10, 2012

Decisions....

I'm excited.

Lately I've been trying to decide what I want to do after I'm done with school here in Eugene, and I've decided I want to move. Not far away or anything (calm down mom and dad) haha. I just want to move to Portland, I just feel as though everything is there for me, modeling, school, a new adventure and scene than Eugene has to offer. I think I've decided to go this coming fall, and move up during the end of summer most likely. Hopefully I get accepted, because this is my plan, and I hope it works! Alt plan would be to go to OSU... butttt I don't really want to go there, its boring...and small.. and I can't transfer jobs. Which is lame. So going to open house at the Art Institute and apply and get accepted (hopefully) hehe.

Wish me luck!

Saturday, February 4, 2012

Monday, January 16, 2012

true story.

Which then made me think of all of the people that have been there for me. I appriciate them so much it's unbelieveable. I'm so greatful for all the family and friends I have that have been able to put up with me and support me with all my accomplishments so far in my life. It makes me happy to have family and friends like the ones I have currently in my life.


But to the people who wern't able to stick around, wern't able to accept me for who I am, who took advantage of our friendship for their own advantage, for the fake friends, and the people who doubt me. I'm sorry for your loss. Because I believe I am a beautiful person and a wonderful friend.


Life is to unbelieveably short to spend time with people who suck the happiness out of your life.

Move forward. Keep going. Dream. Wish. Believe in yourself.

Because I sure do.

butterflies.



You know that feeling you get, the butterfly one.

I miss that. Just a little.



Sunday, January 8, 2012

Yesterday.

I spent at the mountain, it was so incredible to be back at Bach again. I missed the snow so much. I cannot even begin to tell you how much snowboarding means to me. It was a fun trip up with a friend and his family. You know that feeling you get in your stomach, where your anxious to go somewhere and do something and you know it's going to be a blast. Well that's how it was the night before for me. I could barely contain myself let alone get a good nights sleep. The mountain was nice, but the conditions weren't all that fantastic. The North West is dire need of getting snow. So hopefully we get some major stuff soon, because I don't know if I'll be able to last without getting snow. I need some fresh stuff to fly though. Today I'm super sore, but it was worth it. It's always worth it. ♥

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Yessss.







Wowzers.

I just cannot believe another year has flown by. It's really crazy to think about. And every thing that has happened. My life has taken some crazy roads and it's gotten a little bumby.. theres been a few pot holes, hitch hikers, and wrong turns. But though it all it's been an adventure. And guess what.. I love adventures. Their my absolute favorite. In 2011 there are plenty of wonderful memories I'll keep in my heart, but to the rest...well I leave them in the past because I must keep pushing on. Life does nothing but fly forward, so now its 2012. I'm 21. And I have lots to accomplish in the new year.

Here we go. Wish me luck.

Hm.







Always & forever.





“I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain.”

Frank Herbert

Sunday, January 1, 2012

Time stands still Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What’s standing in front of me
Every breath, every hour has come to this

One step closer....
Life's Little Adventures