Lyrics.

It speaks to me.
♥



She has no problem with secrets
She knows how to keep them
She never felt the need to let them show
And I've had no trouble with speaking
Or trusting my instincts
That maybe this is one that I should know
But as I'm waiting there
The devil on my shoulder stares
Laughing that the one thing I can't get
Is what I need

She, She is the words that I can't find
How can the only thing that's killing me make me feel so alive
And I couldn't speak
I couldn't breathe to save my life
All of my chances swim like sinking ships
This time it's it
I'll drown or make her mine.

Birthday. ♥

I'm happy to be twenty. It's really nice to finally be out of my "teens". Haha. :) I'm really excited to see what this year has to bring. :) I really like to think about the future and what it has to offer me. I feel like so many great things are going to happen. :) I love where my life is right now and the direction it's in. It makes me happy.



When I blew out my candle on my cupcake, I honestly didn't even think about making a wish. I always make wishes. I didn't exactly know what to wish for. Then when my birthday really did come. I thought about a couple things and I finally choose my birthday wish. :) I like wishing, it's actually one of my favorite things to do.I think it's because I know that what I'm wishing for could really come true, and it's a possibility in my life. ♥

Vacation

It was such a wonderful escape from here. I just loved getting away, and going on an adventure to somewhere I havn't been in a while, or just new places in general. The sunshine was my favorite. I love the sun, and oh how I missed it. The rain here in Oregon is just so depressing at times, it was so nice to get away from it. It made me so happy to just relax in the sand, and float in the water, letting all my cares fly out the window. I had so many great experiences. I love my family and seeing them was one of my greatest birthday presents, besides being in Maui again.



As I was lying in the water, listening to the ocean.
I felt at peace. Lying in the sun basking away, in the heat. It was so nice to just cool down and float away for a bit. I fell in love. I wish summer here would come sooner, I miss the sun already, and now that I'm home I can barely tolerate the pouring rain. It's just killing me.




Where are you summer?
Will you come soon?
Please?
♥

Maui.

Yayyy! I'm goin on vacation, I'm goin on vacation.
:) I'm so excited right now it's a little ridiculous.
I mean I've only gotten like one hour of sleep but
still, it's okay I'll just sleep on the plane hehe.
I'm sitting in the airport right now, and let me
tell you, it's a tad bit boring. I'm happy my
mom is here with me. :)

We had breakfest at a little place in the
Portland airport called Roses. I really
didn't care where we ate I was just hungry.
I was totally please with the food. But the
best part was that it's my middle name and
favorite flower, just plain cute. ♥

I'm just so excited, eeek! It's going
to be a blasst. I love adventures.
hehe.



Sun sun sun! ♥

♥.

Only as high as I reach can I grow,



Only as far as I seek can I go,
Only as deep as I look can I see,



Only as much as I dream can I be.

♥

Monday?

Man Candy
I think so!

;)












I'll take you, you, you, you, AND especially you.
hehe. ;)

Dear mom,

Your the best, and I love how you've been there for me every minute of my life from the very start of it all. Thank you for bringing me into this beautiful world, and letting me be apart of your life. I wouldn't have it any other way. You are beautiful inside and out, and one of the most caring people on this planet. I know we've had our ups and downs, but we'll always have eachother. I'm greatful to call you my mother and more than happy to be your daughter. ♥

I love you.

I'm ready;

I'm ready to fly above the clouds.
I'm ready to soar.
I'm ready for an adventure.
I'm ready for something new.
I'm ready to let love in.
I'm ready for you.

♥

But, I'm so scared.
My heart is telling me yes,
but my head is telling me no.




I wish I had some sign to tell me which direction I should go, there are so many choices in life. But I just can't decide if I want to follow my heart in this matter or my head. I feel like I should go with what my head is telling me, but my heart just takes up so much of me. I guess you could say I'm a risk taker, you know living life on the edge. ;) That sorta thing. I think I'll let it run it's course, who knows where this may lead. You only live once.