Just Breathe.

I hate that feeling of not accomplishing something... or feeling like I'll never be able to do something in my life that I want to do so greatly. Feeling like I'm suppressed or something. Never to be able to explore. To be free. I want to be free so badly.

she was..

She was beautiful.

But she was beautiful in the way a forest fire was beautiful;

something to be admired from a distance.

Not up close.

Never leave something good to find something better because once you realize you had the best, the best has found better.

always.always.always.

a long road.

If you never chase your dreams theres a chance you'll never catch them.

an explanation..

Credit: Jeff Shanes



There comes a time when the world gets quiet and the only thing left is your own heart. So you’d better learn the sound of it. Otherwise you’ll never understand what it’s saying.

you know what your problem is? you get attached, fast. and once you're attached to someone, you do everything you can to please them and make them happy. it's never been about what you want, it's always everyone's needs before your own. you give out too many chances to people, who quite frankly, do not deserve them. they take advantage of you, and you become a pushover. but you're okay with that, because they're in your life and that's all you ever really wanted. and even if they screw you over, you'll still be there for them. because that's you, that's who you are. once you get attached to someone, they capture your heart and they always have a place there. and that is why it's so hard for you to let that person go.

Bad news is..

Worldly.

Everybody has a secret world inside of them. All of the people of the world, I mean everybody. No matter how dull and boring they are on the outside, inside them they've all got unimaginable, magnificent, wonderful, stupid, amazing worlds. Not just one world. Hundereds of them. Thousands maybe. I want to be apart of them.

Show me.

Because I want no more, I'm tired, I'm about to give up.

I'm happy. Letting go is one of the best feelings in the world.

And its not that I've been dwelling on it, I let you go long ago.

Long...long ago.

Like the heaviness in your heart suddenly burst and

became a billion times lighter.

A balloon being free from the hand held to it.

You know that feeling.

I was always to good for you. You were never too good for me.

So I'm happy.

My heart is a peace.

I found I wasn't the only one who felt the same.

And now I find that I have understanding.

I'll do better next time, I promise.

♥

I've got dreams in hidden places and extra smiles for when I'm blue.

hmph.

Sometimes I just get so tired of people... I just can't stand them.
and sometimes I'd rather be alone, just all by myself in this world filled with approximately 6 billion people. People who just disgust me, fusterate me to no end, and have the attitude of a slug. But then there are the people who brighten my day with a remark, a word, a smirk, or a smile. It's so hard to focus sometimes solely on the good in people, when my mind always seems to point out the bad. But I suppose if you go out looking for one thing, that's all you'll ever find. So I shall try to focus on the good and be the the silver lining, and not focus so much on the gold.

"If I’m honest I have to tell you I still read fairy-tales and I like them best of all."
- Audrey Hepburn

Basically what we have here is a dreamer. Someone completely out of touch with reality. When she jumped, she probably thought she she could fly.

Free your mind.

♥

She was the purest beauty
But not the common kind
She had a way about her
That made you feel alive
And for a moment
You made the world stand still

...

Listen to the rain. Let the rain kiss you. Let the rain beat upon your head with silver liquid drops. Let the rain sing you a lullaby.

-Langston Hughes

It is when our hearts are stirred that we become most aware of what they contain.
— Andy Stanley

run.

You may think the past has something to tell you. You may think that you should listen, should strain to make out its whispers, should bend over backward, stop down low to hear its voice breathed up from the ground, from the dead places. You may think there’s something in it for you, something to understand or make sense of.
But I know the truth: I know from the nights of coldness. I know the past will drag you backward and down, have you snatching at whispers of wind and the gibberish of trees rubbing together, trying to decipher some code, trying to piece together what was broken. Its hopeless. The past is nothing but a weight. It will build up inside of you like a stone. Take it from me, if you hear the past speaking to you, feel it tugging at your back and running its fingers up your spine, the best thing to do —the only thing— is run

its approx 1:55...cool..

In life:

there are four things you cannot ever recover...

The stone after the throw.

The word after it's said.

The ocasion after it's missed.

The time after it's gone.

Take everything you do into consideration.

Lucky is the woman that has a man who doesn’t need reasons to make her happy but just does.

cannnn i....

just fall in love.

for once.

please?

Sometimes...

it gets really old to become disappointed over..and over..and over..again.

Ok so.

You know what..you can just stop being insecure about yourself and live your life to the fullest. Don't drag the past into the future. The past is the past that's why we call it the past. It's silly to me how some people can go on with their lives being insecure and feeble about themselves. Grow up, be strong, be the person your meant to be. Own the world don't let the world try and own you. You can't go on acting as though past events will somehow ruin your future. If you start a new and just turn that page in your book of life, you'll feel so much better. Like a million dollars pratically. So take a breath, and just do it. It's time to start a new chapter and leave out all the rest.

:)

In most recent news, I was in some cute little wedding blogs!
I was a bridesmaid in a wedding shoot I did a couple months back.
Here are a few of the photos that showed up in those blogs.






Pocket full of Dreams.

&

Project Wedding.

So much fun, I can't wait to do something similar in December/ January with Ashlee Murr. Except I'll be the bride this time around! hehe. :)

You know that feeling you get, when you miss something.
You yearn for it, because its been a while, and you've been
blocking it out for so long. Then one day.. it crosses your mind.
And you realize...wow I really miss that something.

You think about all the ways to attain that something you miss,
but the possibilities you think of lead you straight to the one
thing you would never do.

It's like a fire that can't be put out, a sea that will never
be tamed or a rose that can't stop from blossoming.

I promised myself I wouldn't fall. Never again would I allow it
to happen. But lately.. I find myself giving in to the one thing
I miss the most. That fire in my heart. That something.

Yes.

In life you don't always get the people you want.
You get the people you need.
To hurt you, to leave you, to love you,
but most of all...to make you the person
you are meant to be.


(c) Ashlee Murr, MUA Christine Shields

♥

Well apart from my last blogpost. I've learned that I really just need to do as I please. Throw my cares to the wind, and just let the wind wisk them away.

Far far away.

Because really, in all reality... life is to short to stress about the people who don't even deserve to be apart of your life.

It's a true statement. Really it is. Think long and hard about the people you invite into your life. Who you choose to be your friends. Be careful now, for your allowing yourself to put trust in those who you call your friends can be costly if their not true friends.

Winning.

Hah!

Some people are fucking poetic.
I swear to god, you commit to something, you say your going to do something.
So do it.

Seriously, I'm so tired of people and their bullshit.

I feel like I do so much for people, and what do I get.
ABSOLUTELY NOTHING.

I loooveee it.
Really...

Just grow a pair.
Please && Thanks.

:)

Truth:

I need this:

I just need to get away, and guess what. I am, I'm getting away from here for a bit. Of course not that far away, just 2 hours or so. But 2 hours is better than anything. Off to visit my best friend and leave everything behind. Including my cares. I'll just let them stay down here for a bit while I head up there. I seriously cannot wait. This is what I need. I really needed this. Before school starts its absolutely necessary that I get away. We'll let the city have its way with me for awhile. ♥

THE TRUTH:

Some people

I SWEAR....

yes, please.

♥♥♥

Get out.

Went for a run this morning..
such a good way to clear my head.

It felt so good to take in everything around me.
The sparkle of the lake,
the coldness of the morning air as I breath in and out,
the hard cement under my feet,
the smell of fresh cut grass,
the feeling of the sun starting to warm my body,
and the feeling of finishing my run after giving it my all.

understanding is a two-way street.

Did you know.

(c) Jeff Shanes.
"there is more to sex appeal than just measurements. i don't need a bedroom to prove my womanliness. i can convey just as much sex appeal picking apples off a tree, or standing in the rain."
-Audrey Hepburn

love.

You can do it, yes you can.

Well..

Yes, yes it is.
Therefore there is no point on dwelling in the past.
Sometimes things happen in life under circumstances where your unsure what they were and why they happened. But you know...you can't go back and change what's happened. Nothing can be undone in life. So you must just move forward, and look past the little things that are upsetting, and look for the things in life that give you a optimistic attitude.

Just get over the things that pull you down.
Just let them go.
Because it's a new day.


& there is no point dwelling on the past.

One thing you should never do:

Yes.

Always hope, but never expect.

Coast Trip!

So the other day I ventured to the coast with a friend! Which ended in some good exploring of tide pools, and beachcombing, and picture taking. I took my film camera with me, but occasionally got to use his amazing digital camera. Ugh I want one now so bad. Their seriously awesome. I still like film but digital is much easier.

So here are a few pictures I took, I put my own little editing twist. :)

An awesome adventure!

So not this last weekend, but the weekend before I went to Bend, OR. I actually had plans to go to Portland and then to Seattle for that weekend, but a friend had car troubles and needed to stay a bit more local and save money. So we traveled to Bend stayed with a friend and went on a huge adventure. It was so so so much fun. :)

We ended up hiking near Broken Top in bend and we hiked up pretty far! We crossed the river down lower when it was easier to cross, and oh my gosh the water was so freaking cold! It was crazzzy, and then I found the cutest froggy! hehe. So after we crossed we hiked on an older trail that disappeared at times, but we just followed the river up, and up, annnnnd upppp... haha.






We actually got pretty close to broken top and if we would've brought camping/backpacking gear I totally would've spent the night up there. It was gorgeous. We ran into some guys up there who had these craaazzzy loud, huge dogs. And one of them in particular wanted to eat me for sure. He was so big. He kept barking at us. So scary, then we talked to the guy for a bit and he gave us mosquito repellent and that was quite nice considering we were getting eaten alive! So we finally made our way back down ran into another group, one guy in particular was eyeballing one of my guy friends..haha. so funny. and then we finally crossed back over the river and hiked our way back to the parking lot. :)





Ending with some group picture taking anddd my own little photography stuff. I'll post when I get the CD back! Considering I use a 35mm. :) It's love. Anyways. All and all a pretty awesome trip with friends.