I want.

I want everything to be okay, and I want to work it out.
I'm afraid to talk to you. :/



I miss you.

Turning the page

Well I guess it's time to close a chapter in my life and start a new one. :) That's always fun, I don't mind it. It happens, life goes on, and you can only benefit from the things that happened.






Who knows maybe things will change.
and if they do, it'll be for the best. :)


I mean I want to stay with you, but being on a break? Either you want to be together or you don't there is no inbetween.
It's like:

Yes

No

Maybe.

When you ask a question like that it's a yes or no answer. There is no maybe in life, you eiether do or don't.

I know you don't know.........



but hopefully you'll figure it out soon.




I don't feel like giving you time, it's all you've gotten lately.
Do you really think you need time, or is it just to make you feel better
about breaking up with me. I wish you'd tell me more so I can just move on
or stick around. It's hard waiting. I don't know if giving you time will
set things right, but I hope it does. I really do. You mean so much to me.

Oh you...

Oh I miss him, I always miss him. :) haha.



I just wish he were here to snuggle with. I miss that. I feel like it's been a lifetime. I wish people could teleport. That'd make my entire life. :)



I'm smiling just thinking about him.
I get butterflies just thinking about time we've spent together. ♥
it's ridiculous...



:)
but I love it.
hehe.

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So! I'm super doooper excited to give him his birthday pressie. I really hope he likes it. :) But some boy told me that a guy could get a kiss for his birthday and love it. I don't know if I agree with that, but sometimes the littlest things actually mean the most.. :) Which is entirely cute and all, but I want to do something fun too hehe. I can't wait to tell him, it's so tough to keep my mouth closed. I've been really thinking about what to do and I've had so many ideas, but the one I picked, I think, will be the funnest and I'll really enjoy it too. :) I mean I've never gotten a chance to before so it should be fun for the both of us. Not to give any hints or anything ;) Haha. But seriously.. I cannot believe that he's going to be twenty one. It seems like life has just flown by, I mean I'll be twenty in may but still. I just find it super crazzzzy. I'm a little worried.



I really do....

It's a problem. I should probably stop while I'm ahead. But there are just all these things just floating around in my little head. It's really no good at all. But I feel like I should stop looking for the worst in things, I find myself doing that alot lately, I have absolutely no idea why either.





But I need to just clear my head and start all fresh and squeaky clean. and not worry about stuff so much.. I feel like I'm turning into my dad lately, he seems to always find the negative and not even look at the possibility of the positive. So starting this moment I'm going to seek out the things that are positive and make ME smiiiiileee.




your beyond amazing. ♥