It's so weird how distance can change things.

Head in the clouds...

butterflies.

You know that feeling you get, the butterfly one.

I miss that. Just a little.

♥

...

Listen to the rain. Let the rain kiss you. Let the rain beat upon your head with silver liquid drops. Let the rain sing you a lullaby.

-Langston Hughes

You know that feeling you get, when you miss something.
You yearn for it, because its been a while, and you've been
blocking it out for so long. Then one day.. it crosses your mind.
And you realize...wow I really miss that something.

You think about all the ways to attain that something you miss,
but the possibilities you think of lead you straight to the one
thing you would never do.

It's like a fire that can't be put out, a sea that will never
be tamed or a rose that can't stop from blossoming.

I promised myself I wouldn't fall. Never again would I allow it
to happen. But lately.. I find myself giving in to the one thing
I miss the most. That fire in my heart. That something.

Well apart from my last blogpost. I've learned that I really just need to do as I please. Throw my cares to the wind, and just let the wind wisk them away.

Far far away.

Because really, in all reality... life is to short to stress about the people who don't even deserve to be apart of your life.

It's a true statement. Really it is. Think long and hard about the people you invite into your life. Who you choose to be your friends. Be careful now, for your allowing yourself to put trust in those who you call your friends can be costly if their not true friends.

the other day:

So the other day I hung out with a friend. We enjoyed the sunshine. Ate lunch and then got some yogurt. I somehow managed to get a fortune cookie on top of my yogurt ice cream as usual. It's my favorite thing to do. And boy do I love yogurt extreme. I seriously could eat it all day long. Like everyday. for the rest of my life. Not even kidding.

Anyways..

I got a fortune. Which I thought was super silly considering it said:



pft.

like that will ever happen.
I seriously would love to see that day when it arrives.
And then possibly have it recorded or photographed or something.
Maybe even made public and put on wikipedia or something.

silly silly fortune.

I guess only time will tell.

Friday Fill In.

1. I am looking forward to:
the one day I meet someone that will sweep me off my feet.
ha!

2. Something kind of embarassing that I still love anyway is:
watching cartoons late at night when I don't feel
like going out or watching disney movies. ♥

3. My favorite car is:
A Jeep Wrangler = my heart's desire.

4. If I could pick one type of weather to live with for the rest of my life it would be:
either snow or sunshine. But it's so tough I almost have to go with snow. I love it.

5. My favorite thing to do after a bad/stressful day is:
come home and relax in bed and listen to music but if its
a really bad day run a hot bath and soak.

6. This weekend will be full of:
Shenanigans! Haha. And seeing friends most likely. Oh and sunshine too.


7. If I were a color:
I would be pink! because it's bright and colorful and soft at the same time. Like me.


Hope everyone's had a lovely friday.

A little inspiration;

So lately;;

Actually as of today, I'm tired of people.
I mean I'm glad to have some people in my life.
But so many other people disgust me. It's a little
ridiculous. I don't understand how in the world they've
gotten that way at all. Or how the world has changed so much.
I think it's just a persons upbrining. That's why they are the
way they are. I mean some people can just be so kind, but
others.. I don't even understand.

Ugh so sick and tired of some people.
I wish you could just go up to that person and be like:

"Hey do you mind listening to yourself for one second,
just one second"

because right now, yes right now listen to yourself.
You sound ridiculous. Just thought you should know..
If only, if only.

So please be kind.
Realize what your doing, actually take a look at yourself.
(not in the mirror)
Thanks!

Hmmm?

Do you know?

A favorite;

Going Back to the corner where I first saw you
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag I'm not gonna move
Got some words on cardboard, got your picture in my hand
Saying, "If you see this girl can you tell her where I am?"

Some try to hand me money, they don't understand
I'm not broke I'm just a broken hearted man
I know it makes no sense but what else can I do
How can I move on when I'm still in love with you

♥

Welp,

TODAYS THE DAY! not anymore. None what so ever. I refuse to be walked over. It's time for me to move on to bigger and better things. Todays the day that I block out the little pieces of my heart that feel like I must help you. I can't do it. You have to do it on your own. And you know what, I believe in you. I know you can do it. But I just can't be there any longer for you, for you to ruin my heart and make me feel sad or bad for you. You make your own decisions in life.




And right now my life decision isn't to flock to you.

Thank you.

& that's exactly what I'm doing.

I'm done.

And I'm done hoping that we can work it out,
I'm done with how it feels, spinning my wheels
Letting you drag my heart around.
And ohhh
I'm done thinking, that you could ever change.
I know my heart will never be the same,
but I'm telling myself I'll be okay.
Even on my weakest days, I get a little bit stronger.

Ohhh yes;

Right there with ya sista.

It's crazy how people from accross the globe can feel exactly what your feeling when your feeling it right at this very second. Someone could be thinking about the same thing as you. I wish you could meet with those people and have one huge discussion about the topic. Offering different thoughs or advice as to how to get though what your going through, or how do go about doing something, or even just to ask a question on the subject. Because not everyone know's or has been in the same situation as you. But giving advice is something nice.

"But I explained that deep greif sometimes is almost like a specific location,
a coordinate on a map of time. When you are standing in that forrest of sorrow,
you cannot imagine that you could ever find your way to a better place.
But if someone can assure you that they themselves have stood in that same place,
and now have moved on, sometimes this will bring hope."

Quoted by: Elizabeth Gilbert. Eat, Pray, Love.

Even if it leads nowhere
Or would it be a waste
Even if I knew my place
Should I leave it there
Should I give up,
Or should I just keep chasin' pavements
Even if it leads nowhere

I build myself up
And fly around in circles
Waitin' as my heart drops
And my back begins to tingle
Finally, could this be it..

♥

Luck.

Sometimes I feel like luck plays a big part
in everyone's lives. But sometimes I feel like
it could just be fate. Like a series of events led
up to the main event, whether it was good or bad.

Sometimes I wonder how you have good luck or bad
luck. And why exactly it happens. Do you think
that if you've been doing things that are positive
you have good luck, and if your doing things that
are poor you have bad luck. Or is it just our
decisions we make in life that bring bad luck or
good luck upon us.




I feel like the decisions we make in life bring
on bad and good luck, and whether the ending
result is positive or negative it all depends..
Like what if you could have done something just
a little different to where it could have changed
the entire result and that result ended for the best
instead of the worst.

If only common sense were used, and people thought
through the situations before they just acted upon
impulse. In every situation I try my very best not
to act on impulse. Because normally when I do the
result is bad luck. Or maybe not just bad luck but
a poor decision on my behalf.

So maybe there is no good luck or bad luck. And you
must go through life deciding what is best for you,
in the situation your in, and try not to just act
on an impulse. Whatever your doing, do it for you.
Not someone else.

Just for you.

Jeeze Louise...

I wish something exciting would happen latley.
Like BAM!
Out of nowhere, something that's just..
wonderful.
spontaneous.
amazing.
exciting.
something that makes me,
happy.

That would be quite lovely.
You know how sometimes your missing something.
But you don't quite know what
that something is.

Well that's what's going on right now.
I want something to happen!
Just like that...
But of course, because it's life.
I know it won't.

But hey, I've got hopes.
:)

te he.
here goes nothing.

So many people
So many dreams
So many heart beats
So many yearns and desires


So many nights full of tears
So many days full of searchings


So many roads to take
So many days pass




8 billion souls
8 billion people

& sometimes we need just one.