How lovely.

“Can you understand? Can I make you understand somehow? You have begun to mean the world; you have begun to mean poetry and heartbeats and inexplicable mood reactions and songs and scents and conflicting words which do not match yet somehow match. You are not only a series of question marks and abstract references: You are meaning itself. You are a bright inner composure of numerous elements. Now can you possibly understand - I am merely words. I used to believe I was merely words and I do not know whether I shall start hoping for something more. You planted that sense of hope in a secret deeply hidden place; it had walls made of bricks and huge abandoned gardens full of despair. It was covered in dusty waves and it was kept underground where no soul would ever walk. And you walked there - you planted hope. And now I cannot imagine myself without it.”
Kaherine Mansfield, Selected Letters

butterflies.

You know that feeling you get, the butterfly one.

I miss that. Just a little.

♥

Hm.

Always & forever.

Yes.

In life you don't always get the people you want.
You get the people you need.
To hurt you, to leave you, to love you,
but most of all...to make you the person
you are meant to be.


(c) Ashlee Murr, MUA Christine Shields

I'm done.

And I'm done hoping that we can work it out,
I'm done with how it feels, spinning my wheels
Letting you drag my heart around.
And ohhh
I'm done thinking, that you could ever change.
I know my heart will never be the same,
but I'm telling myself I'll be okay.
Even on my weakest days, I get a little bit stronger.

It’s a simple game.
You win when you stop caring about it.

Even if it leads nowhere
Or would it be a waste
Even if I knew my place
Should I leave it there
Should I give up,
Or should I just keep chasin' pavements
Even if it leads nowhere

I build myself up
And fly around in circles
Waitin' as my heart drops
And my back begins to tingle
Finally, could this be it..

♥

Luck.

Sometimes I feel like luck plays a big part
in everyone's lives. But sometimes I feel like
it could just be fate. Like a series of events led
up to the main event, whether it was good or bad.

Sometimes I wonder how you have good luck or bad
luck. And why exactly it happens. Do you think
that if you've been doing things that are positive
you have good luck, and if your doing things that
are poor you have bad luck. Or is it just our
decisions we make in life that bring bad luck or
good luck upon us.




I feel like the decisions we make in life bring
on bad and good luck, and whether the ending
result is positive or negative it all depends..
Like what if you could have done something just
a little different to where it could have changed
the entire result and that result ended for the best
instead of the worst.

If only common sense were used, and people thought
through the situations before they just acted upon
impulse. In every situation I try my very best not
to act on impulse. Because normally when I do the
result is bad luck. Or maybe not just bad luck but
a poor decision on my behalf.

So maybe there is no good luck or bad luck. And you
must go through life deciding what is best for you,
in the situation your in, and try not to just act
on an impulse. Whatever your doing, do it for you.
Not someone else.

Just for you.

:)

To wish you were someone else is to waste the person you are.
And wasting is not a good thing.
My mom told me never to waste anything. Especially food on
my plate. Because there are so many hungry people in the world.
But I think one thing you definitely shouldn't waste is
the person you are.

Wasting the person you are, leads to a copy.
And no one wants a copy of something.
So be original. Be unique. But most of all

just be you.
:)

Dear you,

Hiiii your tute.
I like you.
I wish there was something there.
Meh maybe there is..maybe theres not.
But really.. who knows.
I wish you weren't so far away.
I mish you.
Your such a sweet person sometimes,
but other times your really such
a butt head.
But to make a long story short.
Quit being afraid of commitment.
kthanks.

♥,
Me.

Oh gosh.

I'm such a hopeless romatic.
It's a little ridiculous.
Not even kidding..

But hey, I'm sure every girl is
in some way.
Oh prince charming,
sweep me off my feet.
Yes and Please.

Lets go walk in the pouring rain together.
Or how about we watch the sunset go down
at the beach. Sit on your car and watch
a drive in movie together. Kiss me before
I go to bed, wisk me off my feet, snuggle
with me when I'm cold. Hold my hand when I
feel lonely. Give me a compliment when
I'm sad. Appriciate everything I do. Believe
in me. Encourage me. Forgive me. Open up to me.
Laugh at the silly things I do and say. Agree
with me even if I'm wrong. Commit to me, trust me,
and love me unconditionally for who I am not
only on the outside but on the inside too.





only in a fairytale would those things ever happen
to me.

The guy who says goodbye to you is out of his mind..

As the leaves change..

I sometimes wish the leaves wouldn't change.
I sometimes wish that everything would go back to the way it was. I liked it alot the way things use to be. Don't you ever wish you could just go back in time, to a life you use to have. I wish I could. But I can't. It's the past, and that's where it'll remain. No one ever said it would be this hard, let's just go back to the start. Going back to relive everything again, maybe do things different. Would you do something different if you had a second chance at life. I actually honestly wouldn't, if I were to change a series of events that would counteract everything that had happened, I may have not the people in my life today, have the things I have today. Going back to the way things were would be nice, easy, fun, but you know. I have all the things I had back then, right now. Just in a different form. Through different people. It's nice. And those people love me for who I am. But sometimes when the leaves change, it makes me miss all the times that have passed by. All the times I was younger and older, up until now. Summer, spring, winter, fall.. the seasons drift by. But I cherish each and every memory made. Because if I didn't my life would be totally different.

Sometimes..

I just wish there was such thing as a happily ever after..
Oh how I wish and wish.. It would be so nice.
I wish things worked out for the best.
People go through such tough times and sometimes
they just get tougher. and that sucks. Why can't
things just get easier sometimes. WHY? Does it always
have to be rough, and tough. Like the groud. Haha.
I don't like the groud much. I doubt you do either,
unless maybe your tired and sitting on it. Sorry,
got a little carried away. I like daydreaming.
Sometimes I'll go for a walk, or a run. Just to
think, get exercise, and to enjoy whatever weather
is beaming down on me. Latley I haven't done that.
Lately it's been just car rides, with music in my ears
thinking as I drive. Sometimes it's nice to have your
own quiet time. But sometimes it's nice to have someone
to share the silence with you. I miss talking to you.
But here I am, in my super busy life, that sort of resembles
a bumble bee. Always busteling around, school, work, modeling,
friends, home life..I feel like I've been buzzing all over the
place. Waiting...just waiting. And for what? Maybe someone like
you to come along, and sweet me off my feet. Could life just
try and be a happily ever after for once. Just this once?
What do you think, could you?

So many people
So many dreams
So many heart beats
So many yearns and desires


So many nights full of tears
So many days full of searchings


So many roads to take
So many days pass




8 billion souls
8 billion people

& sometimes we need just one.

Did you know:

And did you also know:

For you.

For you I'll wait.
I don't like waiting very much. Lately I've been a little lonely.
Lacking something in life. But that's okay. I'll wait.
I mean I have friends and family to fill the spaces where you are not.
But sometimes I wish you'd fill them. I'll have other hands to hold,
many other kisses to give, hugs to recieve, smiles that shine the same,
and love for the people who are in my life.
But still..
I wish you'd find me, or I'd find you.

Would you;;

♥

Oh dear,

You are beautiful.
Times can become tough. But just believe in yourself.
Those scars on your knees? They've shown me you've fallen.
That sparkle in your eyes when you smile? They show me you
picked yourself up. That smile of yours is drop dead gorgeous,
wear it more often.

Who gives a shit if you have acne? Who cares if your overweight
or underweight, tall or short, tan or pale, an A cup or D cup?

All that matters is that someone thinks your beautiful just the way you are.
And that someone is me.

♥


Just