How lovely.

“Can you understand? Can I make you understand somehow? You have begun to mean the world; you have begun to mean poetry and heartbeats and inexplicable mood reactions and songs and scents and conflicting words which do not match yet somehow match. You are not only a series of question marks and abstract references: You are meaning itself. You are a bright inner composure of numerous elements. Now can you possibly understand - I am merely words. I used to believe I was merely words and I do not know whether I shall start hoping for something more. You planted that sense of hope in a secret deeply hidden place; it had walls made of bricks and huge abandoned gardens full of despair. It was covered in dusty waves and it was kept underground where no soul would ever walk. And you walked there - you planted hope. And now I cannot imagine myself without it.”
Kaherine Mansfield, Selected Letters

love.love.love.

I love winter & snowboarding.

Snow.

I always loved going to the snow when I was younger. And of course I still do. It's beautiful driving up and down and watching how the scenery changes as you get into central oregon.

My family and I would take weekend trips to bend all the time when I was younger. I miss it so much. And I came to realize driving up and back with friends was of course different and the drive itself was a long one. To this day I still can't understand how in the world my dad would get off work after a long day of driving (he use to delivered freight) and then drive us all up to bend in the crazy snowy weather. He's such an amazing man. I love him so much and am so greatful for all he has done for me and my mom too. The amount of things he's accomplished back then and now too considering the state he's in.

Sometimes I wish I could go back in time. But then I realize everything happens for a reason, and the paths we journey on have some sort of adventure, and some sort of way of working out for the best and never for the worst.

If you could only see how blue her eyes can be,

when she says,

when she says she loves me.

snowsnowsnow.

Good times.

Yesterday.

I spent at the mountain, it was so incredible to be back at Bach again. I missed the snow so much. I cannot even begin to tell you how much snowboarding means to me. It was a fun trip up with a friend and his family. You know that feeling you get in your stomach, where your anxious to go somewhere and do something and you know it's going to be a blast. Well that's how it was the night before for me. I could barely contain myself let alone get a good nights sleep. The mountain was nice, but the conditions weren't all that fantastic. The North West is dire need of getting snow. So hopefully we get some major stuff soon, because I don't know if I'll be able to last without getting snow. I need some fresh stuff to fly though. Today I'm super sore, but it was worth it. It's always worth it. ♥

Never leave something good to find something better because once you realize you had the best, the best has found better.

always.always.always.

Bad news is..

Worldly.

Everybody has a secret world inside of them. All of the people of the world, I mean everybody. No matter how dull and boring they are on the outside, inside them they've all got unimaginable, magnificent, wonderful, stupid, amazing worlds. Not just one world. Hundereds of them. Thousands maybe. I want to be apart of them.

Show me.

Because I want no more, I'm tired, I'm about to give up.

♥

She was the purest beauty
But not the common kind
She had a way about her
That made you feel alive
And for a moment
You made the world stand still

...

Listen to the rain. Let the rain kiss you. Let the rain beat upon your head with silver liquid drops. Let the rain sing you a lullaby.

-Langston Hughes

It is when our hearts are stirred that we become most aware of what they contain.
— Andy Stanley

Lucky is the woman that has a man who doesn’t need reasons to make her happy but just does.

:)

In most recent news, I was in some cute little wedding blogs!
I was a bridesmaid in a wedding shoot I did a couple months back.
Here are a few of the photos that showed up in those blogs.






Pocket full of Dreams.

&

Project Wedding.

So much fun, I can't wait to do something similar in December/ January with Ashlee Murr. Except I'll be the bride this time around! hehe. :)

You know that feeling you get, when you miss something.
You yearn for it, because its been a while, and you've been
blocking it out for so long. Then one day.. it crosses your mind.
And you realize...wow I really miss that something.

You think about all the ways to attain that something you miss,
but the possibilities you think of lead you straight to the one
thing you would never do.

It's like a fire that can't be put out, a sea that will never
be tamed or a rose that can't stop from blossoming.

I promised myself I wouldn't fall. Never again would I allow it
to happen. But lately.. I find myself giving in to the one thing
I miss the most. That fire in my heart. That something.

Did you know.

(c) Jeff Shanes.
"there is more to sex appeal than just measurements. i don't need a bedroom to prove my womanliness. i can convey just as much sex appeal picking apples off a tree, or standing in the rain."
-Audrey Hepburn

Oregon's Perfect Model

I'm in a competition for Oregon's Perfect Model, in a way it's sort of like America's Next Top Model. Every wednesday of this month I've met with everyone involved in the show. All the models have been so sweet, which is something I couldn't believe at all....considering most girls are very heartless. I've even made some friends! I'm so very grateful for this opportunity to shoot with such talented people. Photographers, MUA's, Hairstylists, Clothing Designers, The Crew on set and the other Models! It's been such a fantastic experience. I've made it to the Top 5! Can you believe that! I'm so happy! I really can't believe I've made it this far, but I'm pumped for this wednesday! It's our last shoot and final filming. Hopefully I knock everyone's socks off! Wish me luck! ♥

Here are some pictures from the different shoots I've done.


© Tom Fredericks

© Michael Zaugg

© Michael Zaugg

© Nathan Smith


© Nathan Smith

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